Insecurities Manifest Into Reality

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The Wall

I saw the most beautiful face the other day,
She was high up peaking over a face-brick wall.
I couldn’t reach to shake her hand,
Or understand why she was up there,
But we conversed for hours,
And when she went silent,
I would simply just stare.
Every now and then she’d disappear,
But it seemed like she enjoyed my company,
So I’d wait around for her to return,
Waiting patiently to hear her story.
I’d ask her where she went to,
And broken stories would stumble off her tongue.
I couldn’t tell if she was telling the truth,
I knew I liked her so the inconsistencies stung.
A part of me didn’t care,
Her personality left me in awe.
Another part of me did,
I feel like she needed my help,
A bigger part of me cared.
After some time she eventually leaned over,
I rushed to grab her hand,
But she quickly let go,
Telling me she was more comfortable hanging on the wall,
Somehow I began to understand.

I don’t think she knows how beautiful she is,
Or that I come in peace.
I don’t think she knows how much I care,
And that I’m not a repeat.
I don’t think she knows I want to help,
I’m not here for a midnight treat.
I just want her to know that she’s special to me,
But without her willingness,
This wall I cannot defeat.

 

Written By: Matthew Taylor

Questions

Sometimes I feel like I have these tears to cry,
And I’m left with all these wondering questions of why?
Why can’t we seem to get over the past,
And come together and be a whole at last?
Why won’t you at least try to believe what I say,
Instead of just constantly pushing me away?
Why do I keep putting myself out there,
When sometimes you don’t even seem to care?
I have these emotions I wish you would see,
So I wouldn’t be left with the questions of,
Will she or won’t she?
Will she ever love me like a love I once knew?
And give me the things I once knew?
Won’t she see,
I feel I don’t know her anymore,
And let herself go back to how she was before?
Will I still hurt when I heal,
Or will she finally let me feel?

 

Written By: Matthew Taylor